Time-the word with different meanings; People go through bad phases which they call as their bad times; tasting success is what they call their good times. Different perspectives, different thought processes; Time is something which I have never cared of. But now I realize how important it is for me to understand the value of time.
There was a time when I thought doing job is a better option, u don’t have to care about exams just go to work and come back and enjoy because of which I was of the opinion of not studying further and doing a job and that’s why I had taken up a job on campus. My parents had never agreed on this decision of mine, they still wanted me to study further, thus confirming their thoughts that educational life is the best part of a person’s life which I never had agreed before.
Now as I stand at this point of time, change process continues, with my mind shaping new thoughts, I realize, I would be better off still studying, be it here or in some other continent and no it has nothing to do with my stint at job. It is something which I have realized my parents were telling me on their experience. They allowed me to do what I wanted to, now I will probably do what they wanted me to do before, which now I, myself want to do.
People say I have a wavery mind, I take things too personal which are not meant to be taken in that manner. I m like that, and I am not wavery, I like to gain experiences and correct them in time. If I don’t take some important decisions at this point of time, I will never be able to take it. Confusion though surrounds my mind as a person who is locked from outside with the room on fire everywhere. One more thing, there are few people who always support my decision, they know I am talking about them, and I hope they keep on doing so in future as well, providing their opinions which are valued by me.
Monday, April 30, 2007
Friday, April 13, 2007
WhaT a StarT
I have been on job for over a month now, the experience has been bad. I could not work and I could not perform. My first job in a very good company, I have goofed it all up. What I am writing today here is what I have done in the company in the past one month.
I was very excited about my first job, this was my first interview in my MBA course and I cracked it and got a job. However I was told by my seniors a job that I need to perform since no company would like non-performers and that is what I am after a month- A non-performer.
My boss has been very supportive. He is a straightforward guy and talks what he feels on face. He has not liked the way of my working from the start. He has told me this many times but I have not been able to get it. He says I am not able to get in the “groove” what the job demands and I am probably the wrong person at the right place. I was given a project to work on, which I could have done but I took it lightly and the project failed.
I had a talk with a senior colleague of mine who shares a good rapport with me. I did this since I was not able to cope up with the professionalism the people in my group could. He told me that I am highly unorganized in my working and I am not able to multi task work. There is no denying that I don’t do work, but then when I am working on something and I am given some other work, I stop on what I am currently working on and start working on that which should not be done. Also I need to change my approach which is highly pessimistic. When taking some work, rather than finding ways of doing it, I find ways of how the work would not be done and hence I could not do this project.
My boss thinks I am absolutely lazy, who does not want to do work i.e. hard work. Well in a sense, he is right. I did not give my 100% to what I did for this project. The bottom line ultimately is I could not perform which was due to the fact that I took my job lightly. My boss says he is very disappointed with my working, something he has been telling me since quite some time, he even told me to quit. I then asked him what the problem was, he told me that I am doing this because if I don’t shout at you now, you won’t change your working style and will be like this throughout your career. He even told me to the extent that he would the other colleague of mine in getting him out of something when he is stuck while he wont help me coz I wont putting in efforts myself.
Its one month now, I have not able to get a single penny of business for my company. The other colleague, who joined with me, has worked hard and his feature is out today while my job is at stake. My boss says he has lost all trust in me, he thinks I won’t be able to do any feature and in fact he also told me, I hope that you change and prove me wrong and do your next feature.
Analyzing what has happened in the past one month, I have become aware of how my approach has been, pessimistic, something which I will “change”. Yes it will take time; this break for exams will help me out.
Until that till his point of time one word can describe what I m feeling- “Disgusted”. No one till now would have seen me like this, but then “Life me bahot kuch first time hota hai”
My boss has been very supportive. He is a straightforward guy and talks what he feels on face. He has not liked the way of my working from the start. He has told me this many times but I have not been able to get it. He says I am not able to get in the “groove” what the job demands and I am probably the wrong person at the right place. I was given a project to work on, which I could have done but I took it lightly and the project failed.
I had a talk with a senior colleague of mine who shares a good rapport with me. I did this since I was not able to cope up with the professionalism the people in my group could. He told me that I am highly unorganized in my working and I am not able to multi task work. There is no denying that I don’t do work, but then when I am working on something and I am given some other work, I stop on what I am currently working on and start working on that which should not be done. Also I need to change my approach which is highly pessimistic. When taking some work, rather than finding ways of doing it, I find ways of how the work would not be done and hence I could not do this project.
My boss thinks I am absolutely lazy, who does not want to do work i.e. hard work. Well in a sense, he is right. I did not give my 100% to what I did for this project. The bottom line ultimately is I could not perform which was due to the fact that I took my job lightly. My boss says he is very disappointed with my working, something he has been telling me since quite some time, he even told me to quit. I then asked him what the problem was, he told me that I am doing this because if I don’t shout at you now, you won’t change your working style and will be like this throughout your career. He even told me to the extent that he would the other colleague of mine in getting him out of something when he is stuck while he wont help me coz I wont putting in efforts myself.
Its one month now, I have not able to get a single penny of business for my company. The other colleague, who joined with me, has worked hard and his feature is out today while my job is at stake. My boss says he has lost all trust in me, he thinks I won’t be able to do any feature and in fact he also told me, I hope that you change and prove me wrong and do your next feature.
Analyzing what has happened in the past one month, I have become aware of how my approach has been, pessimistic, something which I will “change”. Yes it will take time; this break for exams will help me out.
Until that till his point of time one word can describe what I m feeling- “Disgusted”. No one till now would have seen me like this, but then “Life me bahot kuch first time hota hai”
Friday, April 6, 2007
ChangE-My First PosT
Its almost 7 A.M. and surprsingly I am awake, not that I woke up for studies or working on some submission, I was supposed to go to work by 6.45 and I woke up at 7. But however lets not get into it.
I have been a writer of reviews at a website. I am not gonna write the name of the website coz i aint being paid for doing its publicity. On a serious note, writing was never my hobby nor my passion although it is for you bloggers here. But however reading blogs over the time always led me to think I should also start writing but there were always excuses.
Now then today it just got into my mind to write something although it might not be that interesting to anyone coz its not about politics, its not about current affairs, its not about movie reviews...well..its about nothing but since I just have registered and I want to write something, I had to begin from somewhere.
Currently, since the past one month my life has changed quite a bit. Some of my friends do know it. I am on job right now, and I have my internals going on too. Now people who know would be shocked to hear I am giving exams without studying, since I was always thought of those kinds who enjoy before exams and work hard during exams. There are certain other things whch have changed and which I will include in my next posts but for the time being as they say "Change is Essential" so I m experiencing the "Change".
Talking about "Change", the quite evident change is I m writing a blog at a time when half of the world is asleep and the other half might just have got up. This, indeed is a big change for me.I dont know how helpful this post will be to you, but then it is helpful to me because, I m experiencing changes, which probably are pretty much important to me now.
I have been a writer of reviews at a website. I am not gonna write the name of the website coz i aint being paid for doing its publicity. On a serious note, writing was never my hobby nor my passion although it is for you bloggers here. But however reading blogs over the time always led me to think I should also start writing but there were always excuses.
Now then today it just got into my mind to write something although it might not be that interesting to anyone coz its not about politics, its not about current affairs, its not about movie reviews...well..its about nothing but since I just have registered and I want to write something, I had to begin from somewhere.
Currently, since the past one month my life has changed quite a bit. Some of my friends do know it. I am on job right now, and I have my internals going on too. Now people who know would be shocked to hear I am giving exams without studying, since I was always thought of those kinds who enjoy before exams and work hard during exams. There are certain other things whch have changed and which I will include in my next posts but for the time being as they say "Change is Essential" so I m experiencing the "Change".
Talking about "Change", the quite evident change is I m writing a blog at a time when half of the world is asleep and the other half might just have got up. This, indeed is a big change for me.I dont know how helpful this post will be to you, but then it is helpful to me because, I m experiencing changes, which probably are pretty much important to me now.
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