I was just on the way to my office in the morning. The usual route; the usual time; the usual vehicle; the usual overtakes; the usual songs and the usual thoughts; Nothing different except it being just another Monday. Just as I was looking at the road a thought came to my mind, “Who am I? Is this what I was gonna do after I completed my studies?” The job is of my field, complements to my management degree but somewhere down the line, a thin thought still remains in my mind everyday-“This is not what I wanted to do”. My dad tells me, ”You are not meant to do such a job, you should go to US, and pursue your goals”. Not that the job is bad, its just that I maybe the right person at the wrong place.
After I completed my first masters, job was never a priority, going to US was. Prepared for GRE, then got admission to MBA, left that half way. Doing MBA was always my dream, not directly but after work experience but did MBA directly. MBA was my interest, core interest in Advertising; I always wanted to work in an advertising agency and hence always used to concentrate and apply my brains where advertising lectures, presentations etc were concerned per se. But then I could not find a job in an ad agency or rather could not find an ad agency which could give me a job.
My friends always told me, you have a pessimistic nature, may be they did not understand me that well. May be the practical analysis of things in my manner seemed pessimistic to them. I was never over ambitious, I had ambitions which I knew I can fulfill and my shortcomings were always taken as my laziness. And no I am not complaining about anyone.
As I was driving, I could see the road, I could see my goals, the road to achieve my goals, this not being the one I wanted to drive on. And the one I want to drive on, seems entangled, seems tough find out, but I will someday. I was thinking is something wrong with me or am I taking things too seriously and making them complicated without any reason. Maybe I need to relax a bit, calm down a bit maybe I need to give time- to Myself.
What is the reason for me writing all this? Wasting my time and wasting the blog space-“Nothing”. But at least probably for the first time I am putting to words what I am currently thinking. And no I am not down and out, I don’t drive fast, I fly low, I will try harder, one day will get what I want.
Monday, July 23, 2007
Thursday, July 19, 2007
A Fast Trip to a Fast city!
I am one of those kinds who believe in one day travel that is going back in the morning and coming back in the evening, if course the distance permits me to do so. Same was the case this time, the city for my fast travel was none other than the financial capital of India-Mumbai, I had to visit this time because there were few things lined up to be completed in Mumbai and I am very happy that I managed to complete them this time and a tad sad too that I could not stay long.
July 18th 2007 time: 9.05pm I boarded Lokshakti Express, confirming that finally this time I m going to Mumbai as being told to J. Coincidently I was supposed to go to Mumbai on 14th which dint happen even though I had confirmed tickets. This time I had an RAC in return and still I was going to Mumbai.
Going to Mumbai was planned quite sometime back. And no; office meeting was not a priority. Two things were, attending a family function and Meeting J of which the latter one was still seeming impossible for me coz of time constraints.
July 19th 2007 time:5.00AM Finally stepped on Borivali station took an auto and went to my cousin’s place. As usual, the habit of me giving surprises, they also dint we know we were gonna be there attending the function. Reaching their home at 5.20, I gave a knock. My kaki asked, “Kon?”, I replied, ”Doodhwala”. She opened the door and was shocked happily seeing me and said, “finally tu aayo.”
Mission 1 accomplished.
The next mission was to meet J. Till the last moment we were not able to decide where to meet coz I don’t know places in Mumbai and she does not know the places in Borivali. So finally I found a way out and told her I m gonna come to Andheri and meet her there itself. Around 3 pm reached Andheri and I met a person who has been my close friend from 6 years and not met even once. Now that she was going to US and she is very sure that I m gonna get married next time she is back and I might not be able to meet her at that time coz of my new family (I dunno the reasons for such a thinking!), she wanted to meet me once. So met her at Andheri and went for a drive on a bike 3.00 pm in the afternoon (99% of the times I have gone to a drive in the evening!!). Unbelievable but true. She had told me, “ I am that kind of person who would not speak much when I meet a person for the first time” what happened was quite the opposite, she kept on talking and talking and I was the person who dint speak (or rather not given a chance to speak LOL). A surprise for me and probably for her too!
Mission 2 accomplished.
The time for me going back home was getting nearer, I also met her mom, and J kept on saying "y cant you manage more time to stay"; she must have said I am and ass and a liar a million times, I had to go back and so told her I need to leave, the best part was the gift that she gave me! My sun-sign made by her and me, as usual, the careless one forgot her gift in the bag itself! But I know she wont mind coz she knows me. :-).
People say travelling in Mumbai is a pain, travelling on a bike is even more pain, but I had a great time travelling on Mumbai streets on a bike almost 60-70 odd kms in span of two hours, the fast trip to the fast city was very good, not to mention, the missions also being accomplished!
July 18th 2007 time: 9.05pm I boarded Lokshakti Express, confirming that finally this time I m going to Mumbai as being told to J. Coincidently I was supposed to go to Mumbai on 14th which dint happen even though I had confirmed tickets. This time I had an RAC in return and still I was going to Mumbai.
Going to Mumbai was planned quite sometime back. And no; office meeting was not a priority. Two things were, attending a family function and Meeting J of which the latter one was still seeming impossible for me coz of time constraints.
July 19th 2007 time:5.00AM Finally stepped on Borivali station took an auto and went to my cousin’s place. As usual, the habit of me giving surprises, they also dint we know we were gonna be there attending the function. Reaching their home at 5.20, I gave a knock. My kaki asked, “Kon?”, I replied, ”Doodhwala”. She opened the door and was shocked happily seeing me and said, “finally tu aayo.”
Mission 1 accomplished.
The next mission was to meet J. Till the last moment we were not able to decide where to meet coz I don’t know places in Mumbai and she does not know the places in Borivali. So finally I found a way out and told her I m gonna come to Andheri and meet her there itself. Around 3 pm reached Andheri and I met a person who has been my close friend from 6 years and not met even once. Now that she was going to US and she is very sure that I m gonna get married next time she is back and I might not be able to meet her at that time coz of my new family (I dunno the reasons for such a thinking!), she wanted to meet me once. So met her at Andheri and went for a drive on a bike 3.00 pm in the afternoon (99% of the times I have gone to a drive in the evening!!). Unbelievable but true. She had told me, “ I am that kind of person who would not speak much when I meet a person for the first time” what happened was quite the opposite, she kept on talking and talking and I was the person who dint speak (or rather not given a chance to speak LOL). A surprise for me and probably for her too!
Mission 2 accomplished.
The time for me going back home was getting nearer, I also met her mom, and J kept on saying "y cant you manage more time to stay"; she must have said I am and ass and a liar a million times, I had to go back and so told her I need to leave, the best part was the gift that she gave me! My sun-sign made by her and me, as usual, the careless one forgot her gift in the bag itself! But I know she wont mind coz she knows me. :-).
People say travelling in Mumbai is a pain, travelling on a bike is even more pain, but I had a great time travelling on Mumbai streets on a bike almost 60-70 odd kms in span of two hours, the fast trip to the fast city was very good, not to mention, the missions also being accomplished!
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